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DECISION MAKING.

2009-10-26T22:38:00.002+08:00

I've decided to no longer blog at craptolaugh no more. Sadness. I know but i just can't help it when people reads and tell to those i'm related to. I know it's my bad cause it's not privatized but hey, why must you privatized a blog if it's a blog.

Anyhoots, i may be changing my URL or i might just stop blogging. I'll see. I'm tired of dealing unwanted visitors at my blog already.

Tak boleh tahan ah kalau orang asyik bace abeh nak bilang-bilang orang lain. Kalau da bace, mulut tu diam-diam boleh? Irritating ah. eeeeyargh!

KEEPING IT COOL.

2009-10-25T11:54:00.002+08:00

Muzikaraya '09 ended well and kudos to everyone. It was a tough journey for us Lions but we did it. We hang on to each other when things are good or bad, happy or sad. & the moment Muzikaraya '09 ended, the sounds&lightings people teared and hugged each other. =)Awesome moment we had up there in the county.

I'm going to miss the trainings & the company from everyone. Muzikaraya'09 definitely bond us closer to each other. Monday is debrief. That'll be the last to see everyone. Heh.

Anyway, yesterday at home was not as bad as i thought. Younger sister sms-ed me what happen & i was really worried but oh well, i gotta face the facts righty? Daddy was very scary. But anyway, let's put that aside. Shall not go further to the details.

I'm very much okay now. Thank you Amirah&Farhana for the concern. Heh, very much appreciated. The last thing i need now is a mystery person wanting to be my friend. Not very fun i tell you.

You know what i've learned from Muzikaraya '09. To keep things hidden & smile even though you're not doing okay. I've learned to lie for everyone's good. =) The only time i'm not smiling is when i'm cranky. HAAAAA! Right now, i feel disappointed but like i said, i'll keep my cool. Smile.

JOM TENGOK JOM BALIK KAMPUNG!!!

2009-10-18T11:19:00.001+08:00

UPDATES?

2009-10-12T21:49:00.003+08:00

I know i have lots of things to blog about but i just don't have the time & energy to do so. I'm just stealing some time away now but, i feel kinda guilty. Haaaaa!

But one thing for sure, I got my Redhwan Muhd back. You can bloghop to birdsferlife.blogspot.com for a full update about what happened between us=)iloveyoub.

& my body so need a massage sooon.
& the next update would most probably be about Muzikaraya 2009 Jom Balik Kampung. The mian issue on what have been making me busy.
& i'm sad that my phone is spoilt. Shall go for service sooon.
& oh, the conversation with Cousin Syam actually made me realize where i'm standing as a 19yr old young adult.

JUST SO THEY KNOW.

2009-10-04T22:32:00.002+08:00

My previous post may seem i'm not affected at all & i am doing fine but well, i'm not even though i was the one who asked for it.

I still do look through the photos we took together & the times we spent together. I missed it a lot & tears still gather in my eyes but things happened for a reason and i'm beginning to accept it. Though, it still hurts & i become weak everytime i think about you but, like you said, if we belong to each other, we'll be even though it'll take a longer time & for the time being let's just be friends.

Well, i've accepted it to be this way cause i asked for this & i never knew it'll hurt both of us this much but i guess, this is for the best.

Yes, i've moved on & it's thanks to you but i don't want this to end badly i want us to be friends cause like i said before, i'm always here for you.

Hell, i sound really emo. I'll be fine cause i promise myself to be. I've made my wordpress public. Lots of things not said here is said there. Lots of sad stuffs. It'll be a pity to delete it away so i'm keeping it. Memories.

HELL YEAH I'M GREAT.

2009-10-04T10:29:00.000+08:00

You know mister, that phonecall yesternight just made me feel better & i am proud to say that i am doing fine. Easy ain't it, just one phonecall. Oh yes, i've stooped really low & if you think i'm gonna stooped lower, than excuse me, you're wrong. That phonecall just made me feel a whole lot better being single & you need to enjoy your life too. Like you said, it's been a long time & it's about time i have a hell out of fun with my girls.

Oh yes, people, i'm single & i've moved on.

Mummy told me something that made me realize a whole lot something new & i love her for knowing things that i kept from her & i'll keep those words as a motivation. The night phonecall with Farhana just made me feel oh so much better. NYEHAHAHA.

& i'm doing just fine without you mister, i'm doing just fine =)

AIR TERJUN OI!!

2009-09-27T23:13:00.003+08:00

I'm back & i have no mood to blog.
Most of the pictures are with Cousin Syam.
So, i won't update much about kampung but i sure enjoyed myself there until i reached home.
I can't wait for SSP tomorrow.
I miss them.

BATU PAHAT WOAAA!

2009-09-25T19:42:00.000+08:00

I met Redhwan Muhd yesterday. Awesome much. & i hope his dikir performance was good today. Oh my, i miss him already. Monday. Monday. Ok, i shall stop typing oh so dovey-ly. Oh & i really like this picture of ours. =)random much? hah.

Anyway, i'm heading off for Batu Pahat either tomorrow morning or later around midnight. The parents will decide. & the oh so sad thing is, cousin Hafiz is not driving which means, the young adults will not have a car of our own to go crazy in. Boooohooo. But oh wells, the main thing is to meet our Nek Usu at Batu Pahat.

That was last year. =) Just thinking of last year journey to Batu Pahat makes me wanna tear so bad. I miss that cousin of mine. I hope you're doing fine cousin. Really hope you are. I'll pray for the best for you here. Always have.

I better start doing my chores before my mother starts screaming.

I'm gonna miss you Redhwan Muhd, always did.
& i love you many many.

KECOH - KECOH BERAYA!

2009-09-22T10:03:00.004+08:00

Time passed by so fast without realising, it's already the 3rd day of Raya.

Sempana bulan Syawal yang mulia ini, Iffa ingin memohon keampunan kepada kesemua kawan-kawan jika ada tersilap kata yang telah menyinggung perasaan atau menyakitkan hati awak-awak ke dan apa-apa kesalahan yang sewaktu dengan nye. Minta maaf la banyak-banyak.

Any hu or ha, Raya this year with the family could be considered the best cause it was oh so kecoh. With 5 cars & 1 lorry, imagine how many family members i have. Heh. & the best part is, it's only half of the whole extended family.

This year, i really get to mingle with the cousins plus with cousin Hafiz driving, we can really get crazy in that Picanto of his. =) It was awesome shit. Ok, pictures will do the explaining of the 1st&2nd day of Raya for the family.

Colour code for this year Raya, GREY! & without any plans, Ayah's family chose the same colour as us too. It was craaaazyyyy!

At Ayah's (last uncle) house.

End of 1st day of raya & i simply love this pictures taken with the two favourite cousins & brother.

2nd day of Raya.

& i find this nephew of mine really really really handsome! A fellow august baby. Heh=) I'm sure he will grow up to be a fine man. HAHA. I find him really handsome that i call him handsome and not Firas. HEH.

The last photo of my post. There. My lovable extended family of the paternal side.
Awesome much.

I can't wait for friday. BALIK KAMPUNG WOAAA! =) Oh yes, & i miss REDHWAN MUHD.

DON'T KNOW HOW TO REACT.

2009-09-19T14:16:00.002+08:00

I have the cutest cousin ever. I can tell you that. He gave me this when i was offline.

-__________________-

How can like that! Of all the things he type, he type about my height. Ish, this lil cousin of mine ah, must give him a huge pinch on his cheeks. Geram!

But, somehow, this got me laughing my ass off. Heh.

KECOH-KECOH NAK RAYA!

2009-09-19T13:42:00.002+08:00

Yesterday afternoon was spent at Tampiness Ikea for shopping then Geylang to get carpet & off to IMM for break fast. Oh, did i mention that it was my sissy's birthday yesterday too. Growing up fast ain't she? & i have to accept the fact that i'm getting older.

So, HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY to you & please stop growing taller cause, you've overgrown me enough which makes me really sad. ooookayyy? heh. Still, you know i love you still cause we can just talk about anything & you know my deepest deepest secrets & you're my lil sis.

And, i met Redhwan Muhd at IMM=) I swear i was smiling from ear to ear. Heh. I miss that boy of mine & it was good to see him in his new haircut. & me being me, i went to say hi even though they left Bagus already. Luckily, mummy didn't say anything. Well... i was just being respectful. Hehe. & during that time, only he knows what i feel like doing. loveyoub.

Today, my family was overly kecoh to rearrange the living room. hahaha. Today is the last day of fasting month & tomorrow would be raya. Everything is done & i'm glad i've been a very good daughter by helping mummy with the housework. I am very much exhausted & i feel like watching a movie. Hoooow?

Oh, i heard the family is planning to BALIK KAMPUNG this coming friday. heeee! excitedness!
mercun! mercun!
bunga api! bunga api!

DRAINED OUT.

2009-09-17T16:24:00.000+08:00

I'm a goody good girl today=)

Helped mummy out with the house, started with cleaning windows of the living room & then off to wash the kitchen. Then, off to vacuum the house. Started from 9plusAM and ended 3plusPM. See, i became a a good kid at home & daddy was so proud of me cause i did all alone. HAHAH. Told ya mummy, i'll do what i'm suppose to do.

Still, i'm not done. The living room is yet to be rearrange. Curtains are yet to be hang. The fans are yet to be clean. I'm drained out. Booohooo. I've yet to send that younger sister of mine for her tuition at Sembawang. Very very tired.

Anyway, I read yr post Amirah. Thank you very much, quite a reality slap i must say. But, oh well.. I have the urge of taking pictures of myself. HAHA. I have the crave of eating at Waffle Factory & fries. I want to go window shopping. I want to laze all day at home. & tralalala, i have one last crave which can only be fulfilled if i do what i'm suppose to do. HAHA.

It's 4.54PM, not a single sms from the boyfriend since morning. -_________-

THE DARK CIRCLES.

2009-09-15T23:08:00.003+08:00

Go on and drool over that few scoops of vanilla-chocolate ice cream which i had for break fast today & yes, ice cream do make you feel better with a good movie to watch too. =)

Today seemed to be okay. I'm still ashamed to face those close friends of mine. You know who you guys are, there is no need to mention. But, i'm still grateful to have all of you no matter how much of a pain in the ass i could be. I truly am grateful to have you, you, you, you and you around when i need someone. Thank you.

I'm still contemplating whether should i go for workshop tomorrow since the rooms are cleaned. Left with the changes in the living room which mummy thought of doing it on Thursday. Oh well, we'll see how it goes.

They say i need to catch up with the amount of sleep i've been missing. Since it's near to twelve, i should head off to bed. Few more days to raya, i'm not as excited as i used to maybe cause an uncle of mine said i wouldn't be getting any green packets. Boo! I'm only 19 not even 20. Hehehe.

& they say, i should stop being so money minded. hurhur.

OH WELL, HELLO.

2009-09-15T02:32:00.003+08:00

I haven't had a proper sleep. Sick. Skipped SSP workshop. Cleaned the house like mad which i just finished.

The only thing that got me smling was, i finally cut my hair & fringe. I feel so much neater now. =) Oh, don't bother asking whether i'm okay or not cause my close ones would know the answer. & result to that every single question being asked is answered by an I DON'T KNOW.

Oh well, i wanna be positive i really do but hey, MR BRAIN why can't you stop thinking and let me sleep? I swear, i need my sleep pronto but, these eyes & mind of mine just wouldn't listen to me. Tell me now, who still listens to me when i need to rant, cry, scream or talk? Who?

I thought my boyfriend reads my blog you know, but i just found out a few days ago he don't. So, why bother blogging about him then? Disappointed much? I feel like running away to wordpress again.

I know i'm being such a spoilt brat. Such a lil kid but i swear, i just want a hug & somebody to slap my face so i'll grow up like a 19yrs old. Something is stinging my heart & i don't know what term should i put it as..

DO NOT OVER REACT IFFA, DON'T.

2009-09-13T23:45:00.002+08:00

I swear, i don't want to over react.
I swear my head have been telling me it's no biggie.
I swear i have been convincing my head&heart that nothing is going on.

But, the more i convince, the more i'm crying.
I don't know what to do, what to say.
Damn, it hurts.

I don't want to over react. I swear i don't.
But reading those words on her blog, equals to being hurt.

I should go offline before i continue reading her blog.
Sakit pe hati?

HAPPY 18TH & 5MONTHS B!

2009-09-12T00:03:00.006+08:00

HAPPY LEGAL BIRTHDAY BABY!

I've said what i wanted in the card&letter, hope you'll like them. Heh=) I thanked Allah for allowing me to know you in so many different levels & with that we had so much memories together without knowing.

I LOVE YOU OH SO VERY MUCH MR REDHWAN MUHD.
GO ENJOY BEING 18! HAPPY AH ORANG TU DA LEGAL!!!

We're only 5MONTHS but both of us are proud that we stayed this long & still loving each other. Thank you for everything. The hugs, the kisses, the late night phonecalls, the smses, the attention & everything else. You'll never know how much it & you means to me. I yearn for many many more months with you. You know that. LoveyouB.

I guess, he is still on his way home from Geylang now cause i haven't receive any sms from him. I'm hoping really bad that he likes his presents though. Plus point is, he seems really happy when he brought home that big card & two presents of his. Duh, who wouldn't be happy when they get presents.

Heh. Ooook, i'm off. Waiting for your sms b!

A YEAR & A DAY BACK.

2009-09-10T07:34:00.002+08:00

"Ramai orang yang tak tahu menikmati, menghayati keindahan malam yang penuh misteri ni. Mereka lebih takut dengan kegelapan. Kau takut gelap, Jail?"

"Aku tak pernah takutkan kegelapan, Romeo. Sebab aku da biasa cari cahaya dalam kegelapan..."

Quoted from an entry on 09/09/08.
I wanna spend a day out just exploring the night. Pretty please?
hehe=)

Tomorrow would be the 5TH being together with Redhwan.
& reading through our past conversation in MSN, makes me smile oh so wide.
b, ily.

ITCHY ITCHY HANDS & MIND.

2009-09-07T22:46:00.003+08:00

tangan gatal nak buat TUMBLR.

acam?

tak abis abis seh iffa gan kegatalan tak tau diam die.

kalau tak nampak aku kat sini means aku da fly la kat tumblr kalau tak aku balik kat wordpress.

confirm takde keje lain!

layan je la karenah aku eh.

aku kan suke main sembunyi-sembunyi. mcm fun. padehal tak.

mampoooos! da masuk mood tak betul da iffa haziqah.

ok da, bye. ni influence Hlovate la nie. ish.

TRA LA LA.

2009-09-07T21:12:00.003+08:00

I don't want to sound so emoshitty but i guess, i'm going to.

I cried a bucket of tears while praying just now. I prayed for the strength to go through whatever i am fated for. I prayed to Allah to give me peace. To make me stop thinking. I'm trying really hard to do so, but like they say, if you try so hard, in the end it's not worth it, why do?

I need to know what to do now. I need to know what path i'm suppose to take.

Today felt good during SSP workshop. No, i didn't do much but to be around Amirah & Farhana just feels like home. Feel so goood. I need more of that. It's been so long since we had a proper chat, agree on me with this girls. You have to. heh.

& i wonder how little little words can hurt someone so much.

Ain't it amazing what words can do?

RANDOMIZE.

2009-09-06T20:12:00.003+08:00

Dumbfounded. Just got me speechless when i stumbled upon this.
Can i have 11April back please? Or the dates/days before that.
I miss those days. Don't you? & i miss you.

Was cleaning the room just now & found daddy's old old stuff. His report books & some important cards. So classic. Me being me, i quickly snap some photos before mummy decided to tuck it somewhere safe.

Reading through daddy's 1980 diary just got the whole family laughing on his english. Funny stuff & daddy just can't help but laughed with us too. Heh=)

Anyway, my mind haven't been at ease. Been thinking of stuffs which i know i shouldn't but, if that's the solution then i have to go for it, right? I just feel like putting this picture up,

Hehe. I like this picture & cam-whoring with Athira is definitely fun fun fun!=)

I'll update about SSP another time ok & yes, thank you for the wallet girls. Really apperciate it. Will update more about that sooon.

AHHH! BABY, I MISS YOU.

2009-09-02T14:30:00.004+08:00

Those few sentences up there by Nass Alina Noah never fails to weaken me.

I wanna start reading RvJ again. I want to go gugu gaga over Romeo's charm & Jelita's care/love towards her bestfriend Meow meow who is her elder sister. I should start reading malay novels again. Means, i need a trip to the library soon.

& i just need to type this down, i miss Redhwan Muhd. Alot. Tomorrow. Tomorrow. Been chanting that in my head since this morning. I can't wait. I don't know whether Nurul Amirah would be reading this, but i miss her too. It seem like ages since we met. Soon. Soon. 1 more day.

oh, Happy 19th Arif & someone is turning legal sooooon. heh.

PAM PARAM PARAM PAM PAM!

2009-09-01T10:46:00.002+08:00

Mummy is making a big fuss about Kris Dayanti & Anang being divorced. Yes, they just got divorced 3 days before Ramadhan. It's all over Indonesia entertainment news. It's the big hu ha now. Oh wells. What's the surprise now tell me? I still want my Ungu religi's album though & i'm addicted to D'Masiv Jangan Menyerah & Aizat's Lagu Kita. Thanks to Hazwan's blog.

I had a pretty fruitful walk around Yishun before heading home yesterday. Just to clear things off the mind & some self reflection. Been pretty long since i did that. & a walk alone never fail to lighten me up but it'll definitely end with a tear in the eye. With that walk, i feel oh so much better. =)

& a picture from sunday. Break fast at House of Briyani, Nusya's fav briyani stall. I miss taking photos of the sky but the irony is, my hands are too lazy to pick up that camera of mine & take a picture. Yes, i've been a lazy bum, even mummy said so. heh.

& i was looking through the pictures in my personal hard disk folder. Came upon to this. Well, actually, i've never failed to look at this folder of mine everyday. Just so, you know where i'm heading to.

I miss that day. Don't you b? I wanna do that again, can? Yes, i miss you.

MAD JACK!!!

2009-08-30T07:45:00.005+08:00

Things can never be the way you predict things would be. Whatever happened or would happen is cause of the Almighty & there is always a reason why such things happened. I'm praying that things would happened for the best. Good things always happen in Ramadhan, insya-allah.

I hope everything would go fine this Ramadhan. I still remember how i was the last Ramadhan. Heh. Wouldn't say i was at my worst cause i've never known my limits to my temper. But, for now, i guess everything is going fine. Alhamdulilah.

Anyway, yesterday was a pretty boring day at home. Out for break fast at Mad Jack. I've always enjoyed my family companion. No matter how irritating & naggy they might be, they are still the best i ever had & i wouldn't want to lose them for the world. =)cheyyy!

Mummy never fail to crack me with her childish acts when she dislike the food that she order & ending off giving me funny looks for the camera. heh!=)

& these two sisters of mine never fail to assure me that life is going to be okay cause they are always there to support me by irritating the hell shits out of me. It's funny how you can love them so much for their crazy crazy acts. nyehahahah!

I want an iftar with Ayah's family please!!! Iftar together gather! Then we can always kecoh2 at my house & cam-whore like crazy whores! & Cousin Syam can snap snap with his Olympus camera! Heeee=) I want a big big big family feast with the big big big family!

& & i want a movie date with someone sooooon. Who wants to date with me for a movie? Nyehahahah! =)

IFTAR WITH THE 2Fs.

2009-08-29T11:25:00.002+08:00

Bare with me, i have lots of pictures to show=)

Awesome friday night with these two Fs of mine. The last time we met was during New Year celebration at Woodlands. Been so long since we actually meet up & talk & cam-whore. =) With them, i can laugh non-stop & speak what i wanna speak. It was a good way to end of the weekdays. & i actually hang out till 11plus. heh. We talk, gossip, laugh, shout, sing, dance & everything else. It was plain crazy being with them. It's like back to ytss days. =)

So when is the next meet up Fazlin? Heh. & Shalini if you're reading this, quick end your exams! We so need to meet up. How bout movies? hahah.

Back to the 140 plant list now.

& I'M BACK!

2009-08-26T23:20:00.004+08:00

So here are my 27Aug friends which i truly adore. One is just turning legal & the other nineteen. Anyhoots, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I love you two very very much & i thanked God for allowing me to know both of you. =)

Anyway, Integrated Project 1 is ooover! Nyehahahha! But waiting for the results would feel like hell. I got a nightmare bout it yesterday. Post critic syndrome. Heee. it's going to be the 6th day of Ramadhan. Happy Fasting friends! Oh wells, i've got nothing more to type & i can't wait for SSP committe photoshoot. Right Eecar right? Heh.

Oh wells, all the best to the rest who is not done with their exams! & a treat from Fazlin on friday. Yes yes yes!

p/s: baby, things would be alright soon. no matter what, i'll be here for you. ily.

EXPECT THE EXPECTED.

2009-08-03T12:40:00.004+08:00

RWP presentation.
CLAP@KHATIB review.
Individual Integrated Project.

With all these on the list, i expect a very busy week & sleepless nights. I have dark circles around my eyes already and i know it ain't good. Parents have been telling me to get proper sleep but i can't. With integrated project on my mind, i can't. Like yesterday, i only get to sleep at 4am cause i was thinking too hard on how to design a certain area. And, i woke up at 7am with a very heavy head. Bet i'm catching up with fever soon.

I know i haven't been an awesome girlfriend to love and i feel guilty for every reasons that i could think of. Hurts alot when i think about it. I keep backspacing whatever is in my head cause i just can't put it into a sentence. But, love, i just wanna say i love you and i'm sorry cause this time i smy fault.

I AM SO SO MUCH BETTER.

2009-07-30T16:29:00.002+08:00

I'm ok dokie now=) No more tears. Yes, no more.

School have been crazy with report writing and Integrated project. It's not very awesome okay? But, i just need to meet Idris for my concept so i could go on to the next step. Idris, oh Idris! When can i have my consultation? Heee. Been waiting for him since this morning. Oooo! And submission for report is tomorrow. And i hope after report submission, i could enjoy myself with Shalini.

=( No swimming though. Frappe and a good garden to chill at. And maybe with seaweed shaker fries please? Heh! I AM LOOKING FORWARD FOR FRIDAY WITH SHALINI!!! Sense my excitedness? Why? Cause i miss that non-halal bitch of mine!

It's really a nice feeling to meet up with the SSP people and laugh at everything or anything. It's really good to be able to receive a nice warm hug&have a really good laugh with all the girls after a very bad week. And, to have a good&tight hug from love is really really awesome after a tired day in school. =)sayang banget deh!

i miss so many many people can?

YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT?

2009-07-24T10:58:00.002+08:00

REALITY SLAPS.

credits papertissue.tumblr.com

MUMMY, I LOVE YOU.

2009-07-23T09:43:00.004+08:00

I haven't been blogging regularly, just like my mood. Please tell me that PMS is coming soon cause i pretty much hate this current mood of mine.

Integrated Project 1, group work ended yesterday and here comes Solo Project. Gah.! As much as i hate it, i still would enjoy doing it so to distract myself from so many things. Report writing is due next Friday. Oh, please spare me the time. I need time.

I've got so much things on my mind and i don't know where to start. I'm sorry for so many things that i'm unsure of. Oh shit, i'm sounding emoshit. I need to get a book to distract myself from thinking too much and regreting things that have been done or happened.

Oh fyi, my phone is currently, well, not in use. For the time being. Well, it'll be pretty awesome to not have a phone for awhile. I need a time away from technology.

On a better note, Mummy's birthday was yesterday, Turned 44yrs old. Awesome mum i have and i no matter how hard she have been on me, i know it's for my own gooood=)

to close or not to close?

OOO LA LA!

2009-07-19T22:27:00.003+08:00

It felt like there was no rest at all this week. I'm dead beat from school and the not overnight camp. Pretty exhausted and i think, i'm falling sick soon. The headache and feverish nights are showing me the signs. Ga.! Ain't fun i tell you.

Anyway, i had a hell lot of fun with some of the SSP '08/09 commitee. Awesome-ness with all their craziness. So many things happened but i enjoyed bonding with the other 2 sub-comms. I guess, it's not that bad afterall. Oh, not forgetting to mention, too many facts was made for us to read and discuss.

And yes, AKMAL HAS A NEW BESTFRIEND!!! ANWAR HAVE A NEW EYE CANDY!!!HAHAHAH! All these inside jokes. I don't have much pictures cause i wasn't in the mood but go check out Nad's blog.=)

Heh, this is quite a long post. Meeting tomorrow.

NOT IN THE BEST OF MOOD.

2009-07-14T21:51:00.003+08:00

Oh friday, faster come please.

This week have been hell since it's the last week of group work. Autocad ain't so fun afterall and who said it was at first? It's lucky i have great company during CADP lecture. *winks* Autocad equals to a tired brain after lecture. GAH!

Gems project tomorrow. Autocad to be finished tomorrow. Submission of group project friday.

It's lucky that friday is a short day. Finally. It's been awhile since i had a short friday. I guess, i'll be heading for bed now. I know, it's only 10plus.

THIRD.

2009-07-12T00:10:00.001+08:00

Tapi aku merasa

Jatuh terlalu dalam cintamu

Ku tak akan berubah

I've been backspacing this entry so many times that i can't figure out what should i type. Haha.

Anyhoots, the relationship turn 3months yesterday. Things have been pretty rocky. That you and i know very well but, i guess this thing called love that we share is too strong. You know that no matter what i'll always be here for you and i know you do that for me too. Like i said, may we have many many more months to come! sayang banget deh sama kamu!

Yesterday was spent with love walking back and forth dhouby ghaut. Funny shit. I had the most awesome time even though without any proper plan. Cause why, i had the best company. Chey! Heh! I saw a rainbow even though we were expecting a sunset but, oh well! Pictures later. =)

you look like someone who lives on the tree.

eh? siape?

hahahah!

BERSAMAMU - VIERRA

2009-07-02T15:21:00.003+08:00

Memandang wajahmu cerah
Membuatku tersenyum senang
Indah dunia
Tentu saja kita pernah mengalami perbedaan
Kita lalui
Tapi aku merasa
Jatuh terlalu dalam cintamu
Ku tak akan berubah
Ku tak ingin kau pergi s’lamanya

Ku kan setia menjagamu
Bersama dirimu dirimu
Sampai nanti akan s’lalu
Bersama dirimu

Saat bersamamu kasih
Ku merasa bahagia dalam pelukmu
Tapi aku merasa jatuh terlalu dalam cintamu
Ku tak akan berubah
Ku tak ingin kau pergi s’lamanya

Seperti yang kau katakan
Kau akan selalu ada
(Kau akan selalu ada)
Menjaga memeluk diriku dengan cintamu
Dengan cintamu

Saat bersamamu kasih
Ku merasa bahagia dalam pelukmu

and pretty much you'll be hearing me humming to this song when i'm plugged to my earphones.

A MONTH AWAY.

2009-07-01T10:25:00.002+08:00

Can't believe i'm turning 19 soon. How fast time flies. Hah.

You know, i'm suddenly out of words of what to blog but all i know i'm missing those days in MLS FOC '09. I had my best times with the SSP people there. I miss those girls so much that i would really want to meet them soonest. Oh, yes sentosa, this saturday.

First day of school was pretty much horrible with the amount of things we have to do for Primer 3. It's crazy and i need to start getting serious with Primer 3. Luckily the site is in school or not i'll die going to Fort Canning again. Ya dush!

Friday, faster come so i can meet my 2Fs & 1C. Mummy, i want a polariod please? In your dreams Iffa Haziqah! Alaaa...

sayang korang, korang dan korang!

MISSING WHO?

2009-06-27T09:57:00.003+08:00

Good morning earthlings!=) One more day till school reopens. Damn you Primer 3. Gah!

I miss my laptop cause it's far far away at India with daddy. Boohoo. I miss daddy. I miss my Redhwan Muhd a lot. I wanna meet the young lions cause i miss them a lot too. Righty? And i can't wait for the coming friday to meet the 2Fs & 1C. It's been a long long time. Finally, a meet up.

And, i'm typing everything in random order. I feel like going out today but i don't know where to go.=( ala, i miss my redhwan muhd a lot ah and i bet he is still sleeping at this hour.

it's funny how you can get so attached to a person so close that
even parting from him/her for awhile, it seem like ages.

PILLOW WET WITH TEARS.

2009-06-22T00:59:00.003+08:00

Things have been pretty bad lately.

I blogged a whole long post just now but after which, i think, i'll just let it out in another form. I got to stop crying. Sunday night was filled with tears and it really tires me out. Shit you la eh Iffa. Still, thank you Amirah for listening me out and thank you love for still tolerating my crap.

I'm addicted to Beyonce's Listen. I know, old old song.

Listen to the song here in my heart

A melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within

Its only beginning to find release

KL TRIP & MEET UP.

2009-06-19T21:53:00.003+08:00

Bear with me this time. It's a hell of a post with pictures and words.

What i realise, KL trip with the DLA & DARCH was something very much enjoyable. I truly felt the sense of freedom there and what more having the beloved classmates and Sonny. =)

Though the trip was a short one, it felt really good to be away from singapore for awhile and then to be home knowing people that you love miss you terribly.

Today was very well used. Firstly, i finally got my hair therapy done which got me smiling all day long. A meet up with Edmund and Shalini was the 2nd thing i was looking forward for today.

Spent the whole afternoon at Bugis. Pastamania, iLuma & Mac. Cam-whoring & catching ups. Nothing beats a day out with two of my favourite friends. I'm more than happy to know them since my yishun town days. I could tell them everything and anything & i love them for that.

We should have this more often and next time we should ask Leeteng along. Oh, movie please next time?

I absolutely love my hair now. No more minah-minah. No more calling of BOON. No more! =)

where'd you go,

i miss you so.

NOT OKAY.

2009-06-18T12:06:00.004+08:00

I should be feeling okay today. I should. But somehow, i'm not. Maybe it's about the hair therapy then again, i always have tomorrow plus i can't have hair therapy if the hair stylist is still at Gua Musang.

I feel like crap shit today. Mind my language. Sorry. I feel crappy today. Please tell me it's PMS.

I was reading through my old diary and reading all those words i wrote about stuffs made me realise how bad i was at handling a situation. How bad i was at handling my emotions. Like now? Hah. That book consist of a hell of two years memories. In Yishun Town and being a freshie. Ah, damn so many things happened then and somehow, i'm glad it did cause it made me understand people.

I pretty much need a listening ear now and i'm glad Shalini is back in singapore. Meet up soon shall we? It's been eons since we met huh? That goes to Fazlin and Firli too.

It's funny how emoshit you can get when nothing wrong even happened. I think it's PMS. Oh, pictures would be uploaded soon. Both KL trip and Dangbeat Camp.

every step i'm taking

every move i make feels

lost with no direction

my faith is shaking

DANGBEAT '09

2009-06-15T00:28:00.003+08:00

I hope the campers enjoyed camp. I hope all the hard work paid off for the committee. Thank you to all the seniors who came down. Very much appreciated & thankful. Thank you for the live band during the Dangbeat night.

I have tonnes of pictures and videos but i'm so lazy to upload in both facebook and photobucket. I have another way and that'll be a surprise. Till then, just wait la eh. heh.

Time check: 12.33am He'll be back at 7pm. I never thought i'll miss him this bad though. Hah! Still, to hear his voice just for a few minutes is very well good enough. =)

DANGBEAT '09 & KL!

2009-06-07T00:13:00.002+08:00

cinta adalah mistri dalam hidupku
yang tak pernah ku tahu akhirnya
namun tak seperti cinta ku pada dirimu
yang harus digenapi dalam kisah hidupku

and i'm definitely not looking forward to be back in singapore knowing you're not here.
but, i'll be waiting and will be missing you.

hehe! notice something.
my post is getting shorter.
cause i'm getting lazy.
i'll get my blogging mood back. =)
YEAH PEGI KL BOLEH BELI NOVEEELLL!!!!!

START LEARINING THAT AGAIN.

2009-06-04T14:48:00.003+08:00

an old post in one of old blogs.

i need to do that.

i want a good weekend cause, i finally am done with primer.

oh ya, camp and KL trip up next.

i hope, that'll will cheer me up.

EMOTIONS.

2009-06-03T10:39:00.004+08:00

"the project drained out all our feelings that we can no longer feel"

it hurts but i can't it bring out.

i don't know what to feel and do right now.

rebahkan sayap-sayap patahmu

dan terbanglah bersamaku

'tuk melintasi langit ke tujuh

bawalah aku ke alam damaimu

CLOCK IS TICKING.

2009-06-02T09:24:00.002+08:00

I'm not feeling good about everything.

Oh, a good thing today is the project is finishing at 5pm.

So, i'll have a good rest tonight, i hope.

Little little words, can hurt oh so much.

But oh well, that's life. Sadly.

VERY PROUD.

2009-05-28T12:10:00.002+08:00

I decided to watch Wawas while doing my boards just now and just hearing(cause i wasn't really watching was concentrating on photoshop) how it started gave me chills down the spine. I feel proud to be in SSP. Just knowing that they are my seniors just make me feel so proud.

I know i'm slow. Wawas was like ages ago but i just got to really watch the full thing today. Heh!

Another proud thing to say, brother is graduating today. But boohoo to me for not attending cause Fort Canning requires me more. Just looking at those graduates on tuesday make me feel so happy for them what more my brother. Congrats abang aliff ku!!! So what is your next step, oh yes NS! B O T A K! =)

Fort Canning in an hour time yet, i'm still not getting prepared. Tuesday, faster come and i'll be free like a bird. Oh, Ainisah, let's go check out my bag later! random shit.

i will go down with this ship

and i won't put my hands up and surrender

there will be no white flag above my door

i'm in love and always will be..

THEN, IT WAS THEN.

2009-05-27T02:10:00.003+08:00

selama aku masih bisa bernafas,

masih sanggup berjalan,

ku kan slalu memujamu

meski ku tak tahu lagi

engkau ada di mana

dengarkan aku

ku merindukanmu.

used to be the earworm. used to be my favourite song. then i forgot bout it cause i'm a happier person now. but Hafiz just had to remind me bout the song a few days ago. thanks eh couz. then, the memories just had to keep coming. oh damn.

RUN BABY RUN.

2009-05-25T16:54:00.003+08:00

i changed my blogskin cause i felt it's boring and i felt it's just about time even though i have primer 2 to do.

date check: 25May.
dateline: 3June.

so, iffa what the hell are you still doing now? go get that mind and hands moving.

site analysis.
finalised spatial diagram to be checked.
finalised plants & hardscape.
tomorrow: layout plan.

oh so many stuff going on. i need energy. kinder?

FEEL LIKE A KID.

2009-05-21T13:10:00.004+08:00

At times, you feel like you want to run somewhere far. Somewhere. Somewhere which you don't even know where. Somewhere you feel so comfortable and relax with someone special. Just an alone time. But, still, do that somewhere do exist?

I wonder and ponder. Damn. Life ain't as easy as that.

I'm sick. Thanks to mummy. The big head-to-the-ache is killing me. Food taste yucky. I need a hug. Somehow, i feel like a kid, then again, when was i not? I'm starting to miss a lot of people. Even those who i see everyday. Who? Him. I miss MS SHALINI & FAZLIN ARIFFIN!

Primer 2 is getting exciting and my mind ain't stop thinking bout a concept. I'm thinking of going rural with straight lines designs and lots of different colours. Still, it's just a thought.

I need a hug.

Please?

SIPNOPSIS 10MINS.

2009-05-17T20:18:00.012+08:00

It's been hell of a month.
Going through shits with my group; Aisya, Din, Nas, Fique & Love. Ask them, how many times in that month i told them i'm giving up. How many times have i cried thinking we'll never make it through and about me, being such a bad group leader. Millions. Oh, not forgetting our mentor; Ida & Aidil. Without all of them, S.T.O.P Sebelum Ia Berhenti would never happen or be put up. I love them all.

My Thank You(s)
Fique
-for taking up Din's place. I swear, you were good and i believed every downfall is another step to be a better person so don't have negative thoughts about you disappointing us. You did great.

Aisya
-for being a wonderful listening ear and friend. For being the best Kak Pen ever. For being oh so strong even with Din's condition like that. You are my best Kak Pen and will always be.

Din
-for being apart of STOP. For being the supportive one to Aisya and everyone. I'll pray for your eyes, to get better. Cause, we don't wanna lose you.

Nas
-for waking me up. For encouraging me that i could do it. For giving me all the great ideas for lights and props. Without you in the group, i guess it'll be different. You are my pillar of strength. Think it through about SSP. You get where i'm heading to.

Love
-for doing the songs, for helping me out with plotting, for sticking up to my attitude, for being with me, for always cheering me up, for always telling me that it'll do fine and everything else that happened. ily.

My two mentors, thank you. For everything. Too much to be mentioned but you guys are defintely appreciated alot.

To the rest of the group or kedongdongs, you guys did great. It's not a competition. It's a show to show how talented we are. Congrats to Hazwan's for BEST SCRIPT. Congrats to Eecar's for BEST PLAY. All of you did great. We did great. To think i wanted to be out of SSP and lose the friendship. I guess, i thought wrongly. I cherish and love the bond we created.

wawasan anak singa menyala
A new start. A new challenge. & we'll do it as one. As a family. As the young lions.

And so, it's done. 10mins SIPNOPSIS is done. Still, there is so much more for us to do. PRIMER 2 starts tomorrow. I can't wait and i hate the start too. Contradicting enough. Haha. I'm dead tired from yesterday. I want kinder beanuo. I feel like junk-fooding. ya dush!

seberapa pantas kau untuk ku tunggu,

cukup indahkah dirimu untuk selalu ku nantikan,

mampukan kau hadir dalam setiap mimpi burukku,

mampukah kita bertahan di saat kita jauh..

SILENCE.

2009-05-14T10:18:00.002+08:00

2more days.

Ungu's Penguasa Hati album have been my earworm eversince tuesday. Call me jiwang or emoshit but Ungu have always been keeping me company whenever i'm at my lowest or highest mood. Shit. Mummy, send me to indonesia to meet Ungu now. Shit. Stop being a spoilt brat.

Have you notice, that time have been passing really fast. It's going to be the end of the week. Pros and cons. I so need to head down to the library for my novel haunting cause without a novel to read in the train makes my head think or sleep and either way it's bad. Primer 2 is causing a big head-to-the-ache. Another Fort Canning project. Oh so exciting. Sense the sarcasm?

I can't wait Saturday to come and go, so i could have a lil bit of space to breathe and passerby dear, your tag don't really matter cause it doesn't affect me. Oh, thank you for tagging though.

Hari demi hari kita lewati

Menembus ruang batas hati telah menguji

Ingin rasanya memiliki cinta berdua

HAPPY MAMA'S DAY & ONE MONTH.

2009-05-11T12:50:00.002+08:00

So yesterday was Mama's day. As usal, went to meet with the cousins at ECP for the usual lepak session. Cousins were at the arcade and i was too tired to talk or laugh, so i slept the whole day through at ECP. Oh, i got Mama and Mak somethign DIY. It came out pretty, pretty!

Which ended off having dinner at Secret Recipe, Vivo City. Everything was a good laugh being with the cousins and i ain't shy to be the only girl cause i feel protected around them. CHEEYYY!!! HAHAHAHAH! Ala, i'm bloody hell jelous that Cousin Syam finally got his DSLR while i have to wait for next year birthday to get mine. BOOHOOO!

Today, marks a month old for us. Hell, it's only a month but, hell it matters to me. Anyway, HAPPY ONE MONTH LOVE. I miss him but yeah, we're gonna meet later. =)

It's raining, yet we're going to the Fort Canning. AH! I so don't understand why!

baby i love you,

i'm never gonna let you go

I NEED MY ROOFTOP.

2009-05-09T01:06:00.007+08:00

PRIMER 1 is done. No, i ain't gonna type much about it cause it's over. Let's concentrate on PRIMER 2 now which would be on Monday where we'll zoom zoom to Fort Canning.

I had an awesome time with Nas and her new found friend, Min. Funny guy. We may have found our new lepak friend. Ha! But, the thing is catching up with Nas just now was pretty much what both of us needed from each other. It's been way too long since we had such chat. Singing our way to a very memorable song. Ah. Shit, i'm entering the memory lane now.

I just finished reading Rooftop Rant by Hlovate. Can i have my own rooftop to rant at? I'm lucky i have wonderful family unlike Trisy but Trisy is lucky to have Jade. Who understand her and finally love her for who she is. Right now, i want a rooftop with a beautiful scenery for me to look upon cause thinking of what happened yesterday is pretty much making me emoshit. Ah, damn me!

what goes on inside

is a mystery no doubt

a roller coaster ride

i may never work it out

WOOTS! I'M PROUD OF LOVE.

2009-05-03T17:51:00.004+08:00

Saturday was spent with dearest boyfriend, Fique and Iqah. Half of the day waiting for bf to audition which turned out to be Sunday. And yes, woots! Bf made it to the 2nd round of auditions.! Yes, i'm very much proud and happy for him. Tell me who won't. Too bad i wasn't there today to hear him sing. Sunday = Family Day.

Ala, but bf knows why la i'm not that excited for the upcoming months. Still, i'll be supporting him from the back. No matter what. You know that love=)

I'm at the edge of giving up everything but as long as i can still hold on, i'm holding it on. It's one tough and tight period for me. My shoulder have not been helping neither is the head. I so don't need an aching period now.

and i freaking realise,

i love you, love!

OH SO TRUE.!

2009-04-30T09:54:00.004+08:00

Tell me you other Leos out there, are you feeling what i'm feeling? Do all of you need a break and a chill out by the lake with a book? Yes? Heh! Do horoscope lie? Cause this time it's not lying.

I'm dead beat from everything. From home to school. But the irony is that, i'm pretty much enjoy being school maybe cause it's away from home? Haaa! I miss home terribly too but maybe just maybe, i need a time out from there. With mummy being not in a good mood, i don't want to add any more anger in her. Good daugther? Hell, yeah right!

Anyway, Wan is sick. Get well soon love, you so need the energy for Saturday. Tomorrow is a holiday, woots woots! I pretty much predict that it won't be a holiday. I have an essay to read and reflect on. I have a brochure project to finish up for and i have my script to really finalised. And all these ends on the 6May. BOOYAH! I so need to slow the time.

You're everything I need and more

It's written all over your face

Baby I can feel your halo

Pray it won't fade away

I NEED THOSE IDEAS OF MINE!

2009-04-28T02:23:00.005+08:00

Ahhh! 1.40am and i'm half awake. I'm trying to make myself awake to blog for awhile. Thinking of the brochure could just kill me and i can't wait for our new studio! AHHH! Our current MM LAB is freaking driving me nuts, or should i say the whole class. Thanks to Mr construction.

Sunday was a simple day actually with the family. Went to eat at Causeway and had a lil air by Seletar. How i wished i brought along my camera but nooo!!! I just had to leave at home waiting for it to collect dust. YA DUSH! Anyway, i still captured some nice shots of the sky.

Oh so the unglam la eh younger brother! Talking about brothers, my elder brother is gonna serve his NS on 6th October. I'm so going to miss him when the day comes. HAAA! All the best in army la brother! This may be random but Army Daze was so funny!

"no, i'm a regular..."
"oh, i'm a large!"
HAHAHAHAHAHA! That conversation never fails to make me laugh hard.

Those who read my facebook knows la ah that i've been missing boyfriend for quite awhile. But it's all A O KAY now cause we met yesterday! HAAA! HAPPY PE?! Very much yes ah. =) i guess it's true, distance makes the heart go fonder. CHEYYY!!!! STOP THE IT LA EH!! But, it's true la.

Anyway, i smell ideas coming my way now so till the very next time and i'm kinda addicted to this indon song. I swear, Melly has a very very nice voice!

TOO MANY DREAMS.

2009-04-26T11:10:00.002+08:00

I've been so tired that i have been dreaming weird dreams. It's all mix into one and i can't explain it. Even in my dreams i'm thinking and i'll wake up with a tired mind instead of a fresh one. Great! Plus, it doesn't help with the weather being so warm. I'm not complaining, just informing. Hah!

Yesterday started with a very sick stomach which i dragged myself to Fort Canning with Nad for our brochure project. I so hate Fort Canning now. But somehow, yesterday ended pleasantly. You know what i know la Nad eh? It's been really long since i hear such songs and see such a sight.

It's another new week tomorrow. I'm not really being positive it'll be better than this week but i'm hoping it'll be better. Just hoping. You get what i mean.

i guess,

i'm getting used to this lifestyle.

CONCLUSION OF THE WEEK.

2009-04-24T22:21:00.005+08:00

It feels good to be able to meet a close friend who can hear whatever rants you ranted. Even though it was an impromptu one but we sure talked a lot. It seems like 3hours wasn't enough to spill everything. As usual, we miss the other 2 idiots which we'll make sure to have a day out together soon.

TGIF. Really. All i was waiting for this week was for school to end. It's very much tiring already even though it's only the first week of school. I miss being with Sonny and Marilyn at our old studio. Still, tomorrow is project day with Nad&Nas at Fort Canning and Esplanade. Frankly, it hasn't been a good week. But i thank Fazlin and Amirah for really listening me out.

And i find that quiz i took in facebook is so me and Akif couldn't agree more on it. HAHAHA!

If time is what you need,

then time is what you get.

NOT IN THE BEST MOOD.

2009-04-22T22:58:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since i webcam like these and truly, i miss it. We should do it more often.

I swear, i've been a very spoilt brat lately and i know people are getting really irritated with my attitude. Like Nas and Wan, but still they are putting up with my behaviour which i'm really thankful. I hate the fact that i think too much and i hate the fact that i'm having PMS. It makes me emo shit and it affects people that i treasure.

Huge sorry to Wan for being a asshole these days and a big thank you to Wan for always trying to cheer me up. At times, i just don't know how he handle the oh so unpredictable me.

My mind keeps chanting,

"i'll pull this through. i'll pull this through."

NO MORE FRESHIE!!

2009-04-20T22:17:00.002+08:00

Start of 2nd year. Start of school stress & start of something new.

A CERTAIN TIME.

2009-04-18T10:57:00.003+08:00

There are times when you feel so sad but tears just don't want to flow down those cheeks of yours and all you want to do is cry. Get emo they say. I'm at that very state and it doesn't help with Windows Media which is on shuffle playing all those sad indonesian songs.

I can't stop thinking about yesterday. About what Haddad said. About what i'm suppose to do. No, i'm not saying i'm not going to do it. I will and i'll do my very best. I'm just worried about the upcoming weeks. Mr mind is thinking too much. I know but i just can't help it. I'm lucky to have Wan supporting me and i hope i'll get support from the family&friends too. Somehow, what the horoscope said it's true. Things are getting fast.

eh ala oh leh

KEDONDONG!

NUSA POST CELEBRATION.

2009-04-17T11:43:00.004+08:00

Sentosa was awesome. The company was the best. The laughters, tears and shouting that we had was something unforgettable. It was great just hanging out with my SSP. I had lots of fun. Really, even though after that, i'm mentally and physically tired.

I thought of blogging about whatever happened but then, i thought, what for? I love my SSP batch. I love the bond that we have. I love them for who and what they are. And i confessed, i don't wanna lose anyone of them=) CHEYYY!!!! BLOODY HELL SENTIMENTAL OR WHAT IFFA?!!! heh!

Seasons are changing

And waves are crashing

And stars are falling all for us

Days grow longer and nights grow shorter

I can show you I'll be the one

DEAD TIRED OR WHAT?!

2009-04-15T07:08:00.003+08:00

It's been ages since i met my bestfriend. I miss her. I miss her a lot. I need to catch up with her and she needs to catch up with me. It's been so long since i receive a hug from her and hear her stupid laugh. HEH! Anyway, i'm sorry for yesterday Pooch. I can't even type how much i miss you here.. =( But, we'll meet up soon. Normal dates at the library with my lappy and cam-whoring crazily. Sounds fun? Soon. Soon. I promise.

It seems like i've been missing a lot of stuffs. Have not been hanging out with some cliques cause i've been spending way too much time with the SSP. Which, i ain't complaining cause i love them and they make my life real happy=) KEDONDONG! *inside joke* Plus, i get to meet the boyfriend. Double plus point.! Oh oh, Eecar made this formula,

HAZWAN + SYAFIQAH = HAZIQAH

Cool or what??!!! Hahahahah! Never really thought of that before but, thanky you Eecar=) Random pe. Anyway, i shall zoom zoom away before i start blogging random stuffs again.

You keep me humble out of this hype

Cause you know there's more to life

If I need you, you will be here

A CHANGE OF STATUS.

2009-04-12T22:38:00.004+08:00

Wan made a huge publication on his blog. So those SSP people who don't know, ah.. read it yourself la eh. Cause the very fact, i'm still widely shocked of what he did but i'm touched la...

I feel really new at this and i hope i don't disappoint him and yes, i'm very much together with Redhwan Muhammad. And with this, i wanna apologise to Azriel. I'm really sorry cloudy cat but, i don't really know how to put it to words but i really hope we'll still be friends. We can still meet up and i know there is someone out there better for you=)

Tapi percayakan hatimu padaku

Bila kau inginkan aku akan selalu menjaganya

Percayakan aku untuk jadi bingkai hatimu

MLS FO CAMP '09

2009-04-10T15:27:00.006+08:00

I have 55mins to blog cause my battery is running low. =) MLS FOC was superb with the company. Those who get it, get it la eh. And i'm very much lazy to type more so pictures here we go!

Sinaran keungunan made me proud no matter how bad or good they did. Cause the fact that i enjoyed their crapiness and laughters with Yum. I hope i did well as a FACI. Each and everyone of them is unique! EEEYAH!

Horoscope told me that things are gonna get very fast now and i'm feeling the speed already. I have alot of "I Don't Knows" as an answer but i'm willing to give it a shot. =) And i'll update more when i feel like it. Oh yes, my sore voice is back and i hope there is no training tomorrow..

inilah kami,

sinaran keungunan..

SINARAN KEUNGUNAN SINARAN KEUNGUNAN!

TRAININGS & MORE TRAININGS.

2009-04-05T00:48:00.005+08:00

Been leaving this blog unattended for awhile. I'm busy with Muzikarama rehearsals/trainings and MLS FOC. I'm all drained out with all these rehearsals but i'm enjoying the company from my SSP batch. I guess, without them i won't be loving training as much now=)

Anyway, after training today went to meet UP UP & AWAY! And, i'm very happy for what i and some of my friends know. heee=) kan kan? I feel like sharing my happiness to everyone in Singapore. It's not about getting attached, cause i'm very much still single eh=) So, go figure why i'm happy. HEH!

The city air chokes me today

More than it ever had before

I'm nervous to feel deserved

By these street signs anymore

RYAN'S 3RD BIRTHDAY.

2009-03-31T16:17:00.002+08:00

As said previously, pictures first.=)

Look at the difference in height between me and my younger sisters. I look freaking small!

And, next outing, Seremban.=)

I love late night phonecalls. Those random and funny ones. And right now, i'm addicted to Angus Thongs & Prefect Snogging soundtrack. Call me slowmo but, oh well. Yes i am. Going for Seremban this friday means missing another round of training. I swear, i am not feeling good about that. This time is not holidays, it's visiting a relative who got stroke.

I miss the BE people. I miss disturbing Mus, Haziqah & Lena. I miss going PAM PARAM PARAM PAM PAM. Ala, i miss FOC la. And, i'm not sure whether i can make it for the 11th or not. Dush you IFFA!

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle

Life is a maze and love is a riddle

i don't know where to go, can't do it alone

FOC09/10

2009-03-29T22:09:00.006+08:00

What's over is over. No matter what went wrong during the FOC, it doesn't matter much cause what i know, i made lots of new funny and lovable friends. Plus, it took my mind off things which i'm very much thankful with.

Frankly, i'm really out of speech on how am i suppose to describe what i feel about the friendship that we have built. 6days together was hell of a time. I learn to accept things now. Learn to be not so conservative and be more rational. I learn not everything must be my way. Many things happened during the camp. Great partnership with Zara and get shit during Blindmice and what nots was something really precious. I'm very glad i wasted some trainings to go for camp. =)

Anyway, i have pictures of Ryan's birthday today but i'm lazy to edit and upload. So, i shall save it for tomorrow. Training for Nusa tomorrow with a sore voice. Haaa!

Music starts playing like the end of a sad movie

It's the kind of ending you don't really want to see

'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down

GENTING GETAWAY TRIP.

2009-03-23T01:12:00.002+08:00

Requested by bestfriend to update the blog. I'm not even gone for a week yet la Pooch. Anyway there is tons of photos, so it may take some time for you to view. The getaway was awesome and having the elder brother and younger sister, Nusya made it more worthwhile not forgetting the cousins and my fav uncle&aunt. I'll not say much.

I hate it when people accused me of something i've never done before. To believe that you sms-ed me that is something unbelievable but hey, you did. Disappointed. Mad. Angry. Pissed. FYI, i don't go around winking at guys cause i don't go looking at guys whenever i walk around. That's just not me. Don't assume/guess cause sometimes, it'll just hurt someone feelings. And congrats, you just did.

and it's too late

to apologize...

PRETTY MUCH YESTERDAY.

2009-03-18T01:53:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was a catching up day with some of the SSP people. Instead of rehearsal, we played this Polar Bear game. I swear, i was innocent la korang! Ok, inside joke. Sometimes, i don't get it why the seniors thinks we are so free cause when we come down for trainings, they don't. So, tell me again, what training are we suppose to have? *shakes head*

After which, i finally had a private talking session with Amirah. It's been really long since we went dating. Heh.! But, it felt good. Just talking to her. Even though at times, i don't know whether did i tell her everything or not, but it feels good to be talking to her and listening to her.

I guess, that whole day my mind was pretty caught upon one thing; RESULTS. Alhamdulilah, i did pretty well. Though i don't know my GPA yet, but i passed with satisfactory. I'm still waiting for the GPA though. I guess, that's the reason why i can't sleep yet. Somehow, even though mum said the results is good i still feel that i didn't do that well. Oh yes, i'm sad.

On second note, congratulations to my one and only elder brother for doing very well & graduating from Singapore Poly. Very very proud=) Which explains us going to Genting Highlands with the cousins on Thursday till Saturday. Celebration and a getaway. Pretty good timing huh? Heh!

So, i'll be back with new photos for this really boring blog. Pictures from both Genting and camp.
Till then loves, i'll be back=)

hasrat semakin terbang,
melayang ke langit cinta,
andai sejauh itu,
kau inginkan diriku...

WOOOTS!

2009-03-14T22:56:00.006+08:00

I went to SSC with the mother, younger bro&sis and met lil nephew Ryan. Pretty much awesome day. Just some random shots i took just now and yesterday with some of my lil friends. Heh!=)

This part is especially for my bestfriend, Shalini. You know Pooch, no matter what happen i'm here for you. You've been there for me at my worst and my best, so now is my turn to be by your side. Don't worry, look on the plus side and i have faith that you will make it. Which ever turn you take, you know i'll support you. Anything, i'm just a call/sms away. And, enjoy your Bintan trip even though you are at your worst. Trust me, you'll get better peace there...

I LOVE YOU BESTFRIEND<3

if you had a choice,

would you change things that have happened?

CONTENTED.

2009-03-12T22:57:00.002+08:00

I'm very much contented with whatever that is happening. Whether in school, family or personal stuff. But, at the very same time, i am very much depressed with a scar on my nose. Of all the places la.. =( I don't even feel like going out but surprisingly, i've been going out everyday this week. Hah!

And, thanks to Daddy&Mummy, i finally got my personal Fujitsu laptop. Best thing ever even with this economic crisis.

Oh, this is normally why i prefer walking home than taking bus rides. Nature have been very kind to me, i guess. Anyway, i can't wait to meet the bestfriend tomorrow for a late lunch and to think she is on a diet. I miss the 3 idiots, 2 dakwah buddies and the sistaz. Have to meet up before i get busy with camps.. Which is pretty much soon. Oh my.

I miss talking to Amirah. I miss hugs from Jenny. I miss Fikri's reaction when he gets frustrated. I miss Sonny's attempt of being cool and sexy. I pretty much miss lessons.

i feel like eating ice cream and walk in the rain...

THE NORMAL SUNDAY.

2009-03-09T01:47:00.003+08:00

Mingled with the dear camera at the beach. It's been quite awhile since i took a decent photo with that camera of mine. It feels good to be holding on to that camera and just snap those shots.

I hope i'll get it. I really hope so cause i freaking need it. Damn this economic crisis.

kan ku jadikan kau,

kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku...

CIRCUS ACT.

2009-03-08T13:32:00.002+08:00

Freshmen Orientation Preparation Camp was hell of a camp. I enjoyed the company and everything else. And i guess, i have to get ready for the FOC this end of March. I'm just glad that i have this camps to attend to. To occupy my holidays. =)

MT NIGHT. I swear was scared of myself too.

There was suppose to be Nad & Nura & Lena but they off earlier.

And meet, Haziqah. My new found friend which have a part of my name. =)

PEACE&LOVE.

KEEP ME ALIVE.

2009-03-04T08:46:00.007+08:00

"Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots,keeping itself alive."

-MITCH ALBOM, 5 People You Meet In Heaven-

dengarkan lah, ku berkata,
tentang cinta yang telah ada di hati ku,
ku rela kan kau ambil jiwaku...

SUARA, DENGAR KAN LAH AKU...

2009-02-26T09:28:00.003+08:00

I cried a zillon time yesterday for a very lame reason. I guess, i'm not tha strong after all. So much for the very strong ego there Iffa. I guess, it's time for me to let it out. Too many things cramp into this lil mind that i nearly choked. Still, it made me feel better after keeping those tears for too long.

I miss heart to heart talks.
I miss laughing sincerely.

I need my dose of RvJ. Library later, maybe. Time check:9.49am. Late. Ciao.

hari-hari aku lewati

hanya sendiri..

MASUKI BAYANGMU DALAM DIMENSIKU...

2009-02-24T01:07:00.008+08:00

Ku semakin terbawa dalam bayang semu. Bila ku ingin dirimu. Terjerat ku terjerat dalam maya cinta. Ku miliki selalu.

"kalau nak tahu orang sayangkan kita atau tak, 'hilang kan diri' buat beberapa ketika. tengok sama ada dia boleh teruskan kehidupan tanpa kita atau tak. kalau dia bersedih, bermakna dia sayangkan kita. tapi kalau dia gembira lebih-lebih, maknanya dia teramat menyayangi kita. sebab orang yang ketawa lebih-lebih tulah di dalam hatinya dia akan bersedih sorang diri."

-Emelyn in RvJ.

COLOURS.

2009-02-23T02:35:00.003+08:00

Just some operations on the colours of the blog and resizing it. This time, i felt like having a big space to type in. Heh! Most probably for the pictures. =) Anyway, it's just another way to spice up the life during the holidays. The job offer at Plaza Singapura is not calling me back, so i'll take it as rejected. Booo me!

I feel like badminton later in the morning and swimming in the evening. Oh, no more swimming in the afternoon. I turned dark and my skin is peeling. Oh my. It's late and i'm not feeling sleepy. I miss my 2Fs&1C. Eh, meet up la! I miss the dakwah buddies also. All the best to Shalini for her exams later in the morning. Finish up the week so we can badminton together! =)

Masih Ada by Ello is really really addictive and i'm crazy over Ungu, yet again.

Aku ingin menjadi setitik awan kecil dinadi

Bersama mentari

Walaupun kusendiri tapi aku masih ada

Masih ada cinta dihati

MARINA BARRAGE.

2009-02-17T21:48:00.002+08:00

Spending monday with her makes me miss the YTSS drama juniors. I miss my fellow Mizrahi! I miss Shmitha a lot! I miss going crazy during drama. Oh my, i miss drama. It's just not the same with SSP. No hard feelings. =) Thinking of going to YTSS for a drama visit soon.

Anyhoots, promoted to Year 2 is an awesome feeling. Sonny cried. Marilyn & Siti looked so upset. Oh my, i'll miss them. I got a retail job at Plaza Singapura. I want to go for a swim.

i want

nobody nobody nobody

but

YOU!

1 2 3.

2009-02-16T23:19:00.001+08:00

1. LAST DAY OF BEING A FRESHIE IN DLA.

2. VALENTINE'S DAY CELEBRATION WITH SHALINI AT JURONG POINT.

3. COUSIN DINO'S WEDDING ON THE 14TH & 15TH.

14 FEBRUARY 2009.

15 FEBRUARY 2009

ORANGY ENOUGH? =) THEN, IT ENDED OFF PLANNING FOR COUSIN MAS'S WEDDING.

Marina barrage is boring but, think it'll be nicer in the evening or night. Will upload those the next time. =) I had a time of a day with Christine today. Laughters & gossips. What more would you expect with Christine? Anyway, pictures of the aboves are located at my facebook=)

sumpah i love you,

i miss you!

AND THEN, IT'S DONE.

2009-02-12T21:57:00.002+08:00

I'm pretty upset about leaving Sonny, Marilyn & Siti. They have been the best lecturers and being with them taught me a lot. The craziness of being a landscape architecture student.How i wish they would follow us up to year 2.

Tomorrow would be our last day together. Heard there is award ceremonies and free food=) Something to look forward to. Best! Ah, the moral of the story is, i will definitely miss those 3 lecturers. =( Pictures would be taken for memories sake.

Oh well, at least i'll be meeting Shalini tomorrow for a mini celebration of Valentine's Day. Heh! Since her boyfriend is creating unwanted problems and i, as usual, never have dates. It's a good thing, trust me. Anyway, couples out there have fun on the 14th Feb.

This weekend would be a hell of a week and i can't wait.! Expect lots of pictures the following post!

i feel better.

knowing that i've missed you enough

and that, the feeling is gone..

WA DUSH!

2009-02-11T00:14:00.002+08:00

The world is getting scarier by the minute, every second. Never know what to expect and never know what to do. A single wrong step taken, would be the toughest thing to face. People are hiding their feelings. People are hurting people's feelings. Love and Hate. What's new in this world now, tell me?

It's random. Just thoughts that i thought should be type down. I wonder how people survive in this world when everyone know, it's a dangerous place out there. A dangerous world. If i had the choice, i'll go travel around the world. Look at the people. Look and observe how the live and so, i could appreciate what i have. To appreciate my environment better. Right now, i miss her, him, you and them.

I miss sunset. I miss photography. I miss laughing loudly. I miss talking crap. I miss the library. I miss swimming. I should get back to that, to those, since the holidays are near. Camps, chalet & dates. Ha, i need work. Very soon please?

And talking to Amirah yesterday. Listening to her and just laughing with her, makes the afternoon really worthwhile at Jurong Point. It's been awhile since we had those talks. =) Now, i just hope, Nad is fine. You know, we love you kan? Sayang banget deh sama kamu!

I can't take it any longer

Thought that we were stronger

All we do is linger

Slipping through my fingers

UPDATES.

2009-02-07T23:03:00.003+08:00

Oh well, i'm dead tired after the picnic at Botanics with the SISTAZ. Hell of a fun and laughter. It's been really long since i saw them. With me creating problems like losing my phone.. Heee=) Anyways, i'll upload the pictures soon when i get them.

BACK TRACK.

I finished my GREEN INSPIRATION BABY! OH YES I AM! After much stress and craziness, the whole class is done with it. My interim review went pretty well. I'm just glad i had good comments. I'm praying that my GPA would be as good as the comments tooo. =)

Celebrated Atira's 18th. I haven't had so much fun with SSP girls plus Wan & Farhan ever since.. i don't know when. Pretty crazy. Hope you like that short celebration=)

I just finished reading aA+bB by Hlovate, yet again. I just thought, that few sentences up there was pretty much meaningful. I love reading Hlovate's work. It's just simply funny and enjoyable. She recently just published two books and yes, i'm aiming just for those.

You know, this entry is so random. Oh my, it's been awhile since i used the word,"random". hmmm. I'm just tired.

right now, i'm just not..

depending & hoping anymore.

MOTIVATION.

2009-02-01T09:24:00.003+08:00

Dear Class,

Hope you are well.

Allow me to tell you that I am pleased with all the efforts that you have shown through the course of this final project. I am very proud of you. Im sure your parents will be twice as proud as me of wht you all have become.

I am writing this email in light of your model making experience. Others had good experiences while most of you had experienced a very tough roller-coaster ride. This is because each of you has different level of understanding, patience, outlook, skills, speed,and aptitude. I need you to understand this. You will know what I meant in the future when you are already working.

This model-making experience, to sum up, has taught us one thing - not making model, but to rise to the occassion when it is called for. The tears, laughter, friendship and teamwork has binded us together during this rush hour time.

Please continue to be motivated. Dont let other people kill your motivation. Remember what Ive told you before....you are competing against yourself.

Finally, let me give you this words of wisdom.... The highest reward for a man's toil is not what he gets from it but rather what he becomes by it.

yours sincerely,

Mr. Sonny

I have the best leacturer ever. Last two weeks have been hell of a week. Model-making and things to finish up. It's crazy. No sleep and heavy eye bags. It's madness. But i survived. I'm 95% done. Just have to bind things up together in school early tomorrow morning. I hope the rest of the class is doing well too. Tomorrow is the last critic session then i'll be done with the whole GREEN INSPIRATION. Anyway, after reading Sonny's email, i'm motivated and sure that things would be fine tomorrow. That, all my effort will not go to waste. I'm praying so. If only Sonny will still be our lecturer for Year 2. Sonny is a lecturer whom, i will never forget. He is the best la! DLA friends, lets get this GREEN INSPIRATION over and done with!

I'm a hell of a scandal, me,

I'm a scene, I'm a drama queen,

I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen!

COURAGE.

2009-01-27T01:49:00.002+08:00

I finally went through my past posts and i even put my archives. So that i could look back through the memories. Too many memories. Memories on friendship, studies, heartaches and craziness. Hell of a ride with the emotions. I can still feel the sadness when i read back the memories. Though, it was said to be a year ago. Heh=) I'm just glad that i've finally brave through this phase of life.

Firli was such a sweetheart. We were smsing each other to catch up on our current life. I love him for understanding me and for being a great friend=) I was being very weak yesterday and i was at the verge of crying thinking about everything but Firli saved me by being there for me. I've been very sensitive lately. God knows why...

Anyway, i'm just freshing up my mind cause i'm gonna continue doing my GREEN INSPIRATION after this.

mencintaimu dengan penuh rasa sabar

meski sakti hati ini kau tinggalkan

ku ikhlas untuk bertahan

SUDDEN URGE.

2009-01-25T11:25:00.002+08:00

Urge of going to the beach and apperciate what Allah have given us. It was said, this life is just temporary. Watch how the sun sets and admire how lightness changed to darkness. Look at the surrounding and thank Allah for letting me be here. Allowing me to live.

I've been taking long walks. As i walk, i listen to the birds chirping their way back home. Listen to the dogs barking with the evening breeze hitting my face. A wonderful feeling. I stop and i listen. I stop and i stare. I watch and i smile. I'm learning. Learning to let go and learning to understand.

Take a bow

Cause this scene is coming to an end

HOROSCOPE.

2009-01-24T14:03:00.003+08:00

Your health will benefit from your getting out and more active right now. You may be suffering from some stress because someone is not being totally honest with you about something and you are not sure how to handle it. Wait a bit longer before taking action - the right course will become obvious in time.

I feel that today's horoscope of leo is true. Maybe, that's the reason why i'm not feeling happy lately.

you know what,
i hate you.

UNDER YOUR SPOTLIGHT.

2009-01-17T21:27:00.003+08:00

I'm dead tired thinking of FYP but i'm thinking positive. Right now, i'm surrounded by my A2&A3 papers. I miss school but i'm not looking forward to Monday. I need to print my new layout, sunday would be the prefect date. Anyone wanna accompany me? Heh!. Leona Lewis is singing by my side and it's making me miss Pooch, Amirah and yes, Cloudy cat. =( Meet up soon.

3days of workshop was awesome but tiring. All the best to the other batches. I swear you'll have the best time of your life especially with your group cause i did! I saw Bus Stop Valley & a Resort! HAHAHHA! BOOM PRATA! It's nice ok! =) DUSH!

I can't promise my HIATUS cause i need somewhere to rant.

cintamu suci tak berbelah bagi,

isi hatimu takkan ku mengerti..

ABANG'S 20TH.

2009-01-11T09:59:00.004+08:00

I'll make it short cause my mind is dead tired and so are my fingers. It's freaking numb right now. Ok, HAPPY BELATED 20TH ABANGKU!! SEMOGA PANJANG UMUR DAN SENTIASE GILE! ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR FYP & NS! WAHAHAHA! You are the best brother that i have and i wouldn't have asked for more. You know deep down, i love you! =)

So we thought the mini celebration was too mini. And Iffa being Iffa, i decided to have an impromptu 20th birthday bash for the awesome brother. Being the eldest sister, i got all the younger ones to join forces with me and the result was better than expected!

Which ended my younger siblings and i to clean the floor and stuff. Still, who says cleaning was such a tough job? We had all the fun we had. The only best way for me to rest my mind just for a lil while.

And by then, all of us were freaking cold and sneezing non-stop. Next birthday, 29Jan. Daddy you are next!!! WAHAHAHHA! Mummy said, i'm evil. Pure cruel evil! Heeee!

I wanna believe in everything that you say
'cause it sounds so good
but if you really want me, move slow
there's things about me you just have to know

I'M REALLY EXHAUSTED.

2009-01-10T10:15:00.002+08:00

With modelling making next week, lasting for 4days, 12hours each at the other end of Yishun. And GEMS presentation on Tuesday, i might as well live my life in school. Plus, with flu and on off fever, is not helping either.

I'm not having time for myself either. Sleeping late and whatever nots. What i want right now, is to a trip back to kampung, sit by the stream and just chill. Live, Laugh & Love. I want to do that as much as i want to finish up this GREEN INSPIRATION. My back is aching, massage please Cousin Yan.!

With so much things going on, you bet. I miss a lot of people. Let's think of something so that we can meet up soon. 28Feb please come soon.

HIATUS might be a good thing now.

KETAKUTAN ATAU KEBENCIAN?

2009-01-08T21:58:00.001+08:00

Di kala, aku gabungin ketakutanku dengan kebencianmu, terlahirlah sebuah ego yang kini,

susah untuk kita merobohkannya.

dengarkan aku, aku merindukanmu.

POSTED SPECIALLY FOR..

2009-01-06T21:06:00.003+08:00

It's been awhile seen i met someone close to the heart. Someone whom i can talk to anything and everything. I met my dearest Edmund Kwek. My angelic demon. =)

I'm really glad i met him. To know who he is, to know what happen, to know everything that he is keeping actually made me realise how much we have grown into a much matured person. You know Edmund, no matter what happen, i'll still love you like how i've love you. You will always be my demon. Somehow, angelic huh? HAHAHA. I don't go around breaking friendship with people cause whatever happen they played apart in my life which somehow have changed me. I've known Edmund since Sec2 and till now, we've been very good friends and i treasure this friendsip too much. So, BROTHERLY ANGELIC DEMON, we shall hang out soon when our holidays start and by then i think our dear Shalini would have start school. WAHAHAHA! Make her damn jealous! Booooyah!

Oh woman! I can't wait to meet you on saturday either. Weeee!

Dengarlah matahariku, suara tangisanku

Kubersedih karna panah cinta menusuk jantungku

Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku

Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukkan waktu

INDAH?

2009-01-04T21:10:00.003+08:00

jatuh cinta itu indah, jangan kau takut jatuh cinta lagi...

A friend told me that i shouldn't be afraid and i'll never know until i'm there. Seriously, i'm confused myself. I love contradicting myself and everytime i do that, i laugh at my silly self. Shit Iffa. Still, i have all the time of the world to fall in love. Taking small baby steps.

Anyway, i have my darling friends to lend on when i need them. Talking about darling friends, i miss Shalini! Call me or something la woman!

I need someone to cheer me up now. Cause, right now.. Somehow, the heart is feeling rather empty.

Tomorrow's coming quicker than yesterday came today,

I guess this is goodnight,

NEW YEAR EVE WITH THE 2Fs.

2008-12-31T22:27:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Nasuha! =)hope you like the lil prezzie and surprise! No biggie though.

Today was spent with Fazlin & Firli. Having them by my side today was awesomely crazy as always. Nobody could replace them. Oh, thanks Fazlin for everything. From the food to the movie tickets. Firli & i will treat you in return when we meet again. Hoooo.

This picture doesn't says it all. Neither Firli nor i smoke. Amazingly, we found that thing on the floor. LOL.

2009 is just hours away. 2008 have taught me alot of things. From friendship to love to hardships to being patience to being respectful to being open minded to being focus and the list goes on. It's too long to list down but those who played apart in my 2008, you guys are never forgotten. You know i love you people no matter how hard it had been for us.

I'm hoping nothing big for 2009. Just don't make it a hard year for me please? I love you guys, from the bottom of my heart. You know who you are loves=)

i'm still misisng you

like the storm misses the rain

like the warm summers day

i've been missing you always...

SCHOOL RESUMES TOMORROW!

2008-12-28T22:52:00.003+08:00

Things have been pretty awesome this week. Just that i didn't make it for EECAR's&NAS's BIRTHDAY PARTY. I'm sorry girls. Really i am. God knows how much i wanted to go for that. =( Frankly, i'm getting tired of blogging using blogspot but that doesn't mean i've stop blogging. So, go read in between the lines.

Shalini got back from Australia, so we met up for a random swimming session together. Hehehe!

I like it alot. Just two of us with stupid and crappy talks. Hahahah! I LOVE YOU LA POOCH!

Friday evening, met up with Azriel to watch the sunset and talk crap. Heh.! =)

Saturday night was spent at Sembawang park for a camp fire night which end up being a camp overnight with the cousins & family. Nothing beats family gathering. More of this please, but with proper planning!=)

I love this picture. No edit and stuff. Pure original. =)

School resumes tomorrow means, busier than ever. Still, i can't wait to meet them tomorrow!

Ingatkan engkau kepada,

Embun pagi bersahaja,

Yang menemani mu,

Sebelum cahaya

LEAVE.LEAVE.LEAVE!

2008-12-22T23:25:00.003+08:00

SHALINI IS BACK!!! WOOHOOO! I'M GONNA MEET HER SOOON!
School is starting next week. Been busy with doing layouts this week. Wait, it's just the start of the week. Pretty exhausted with all this squeezing of brain juice. Ergh.!

On the other hand, 2009 is coming. 2008 is ending. I'm glad that 2008 is leaving cause 2008 is a pretty much not a happy year. I want it to end quick and fast. I'm not ready for 2009 but, i'm starting fresh and new. I don't know and i'm not having any resolutions this year. I'll just go with the flow. Living by the day. =) OK DOKIE!! HEEEE!

ALOT OF THINGS HAVE BEEN PLAN THIS WEEK.
I'M GONNA BE BUSY! HEEEE=)

Bila saat nanti aku jauh
Kuharap kau mengerti
Kuharap kau sadari

OUT WITH MY DAKWAH BUDDIES.

2008-12-19T00:25:00.005+08:00

Today felt good. A girls day out with the dakwah buddies never fail to put a smile on my face. Just the garden, bubble tea and random talks by three of us. Simple catch ups and disturbing of Hana was a prefect day with two of them. You know i love you girls=)

IMISSPOOCHALOT!COMEHOMESOONPLEASE!.IMISSYOUSHALINI.!

Tinggalkan mu dari hidupku
Bangunkanku dari mimpiku
Yakinkan semua ini hanya khayalku

=)

2008-12-14T10:01:00.003+08:00

It's been awhile huh? Holiday is pretty boring, time like these, i wish i am going to school. Heee=) Well, Iffa enjoy this holiday before school starts with project! URGH! For now, i'll keep living by the day.

Some overdue pictures of Hari Raya Haji at Auntie Nan's house with the cousins. It was simply cousin-licious. It's been awhile since we had such fun together. I really hope that outing would happen soon. Being around with cousins is love.

Meet my nephew, Iqmal. He is just the cutest la.

For now, i can't wait for monday! I can't wait to meet my 2Fs. I can't to meet Basketbowels too. Heee=) Anyway, Erin's concert was really good plus fun! I still owe her 15bucks though, i'll pay you when we meet for CRS. I think next week would be frequent trips to school for projects. WAAA! You see, i'm just typing crap for now cause my love for blogging is fading. DUSH!

buktikan la kau cinta pada ku

Ku ingin lihat kesungguhanmu

sebelum ku bilang i love you

IT'S MY 200TH POST!

2008-12-07T18:18:00.003+08:00

HEAVY ON PICTURES!

Yesterday was hell fun with the 2Fs. Both of you never fail to brighten up the day even though the weather was really dark. Let's have more fun time like that! I'll be looking forward on the 15th. =)

I TRULY ENJOYED MY DAY WITH MY 2Fs.

NOBODY COULD MAKE MY SATURDAY ANY BETTER THAN THEM!

I'm addicted to Irwansyah's Camelia, Ungu's Surga Hati & Taufik's Khayalan. Go listen to it. It's very addictive especially Irwansyah's current single. This 3 weeks holiday of mine would be use to catch up on my malay novel reading & meeting up with the close buddies. You know, i kinda miss school and my DLA friends right now. =(BOO! Oh, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!

semuanya telah berakhir

antara hatiku dan hatimu

takkan ada cinta seperti yang dulu..

HOW MUCH I HAVE GROWN.

2008-12-05T22:48:00.005+08:00

You see, while i'm cleaning my stuffs at my brother's room, i found out something really lame!

I don't know about you girls out there, but when i was in primary school, i do ask my friends to write on a book. You know, those books where they will write thier biodata and which friend they like or dislikes. Yes, it's really lame. And i saw my biodata and guess what i wrote,

i hope everyone will always enjoy but, don't enjoy too much on drugs..

WAHAHAHAHA!!! HOW STUPID AND LAME CAN BE??!!! It's damn funny la and the only person who i see can write like that, is my younger sister, Nusya. Yes. I see her in me but she's definitely way cleverer la. Heh! =) Anywhooos, i hope this 2Fs&1C picnic would go on tomorrow. I can't wait to meet those idiots. And, cloudy cat, i'm so so sorry about what happened. We'll meet another time ok?=)

meski ku tak tau lagi,

engkau ada di mana,

dengarkan aku,

ku merindukan mu...

SAY IT OUT AND BE PROUD!

2008-12-04T21:17:00.003+08:00

HOLIDAYS ARE HERE. JUMP FOR JOY PEOPLE!

Ok, i'm not feeling any happiness and joy about all these though cause i lost my phone. I don't blame anyone but myself and thanks to those who helped, really apperciate it. =) It was complete weirdness. Oh yes, i'm phone-less for now, what a great timing. Yes, with 2Fs&1C picnic to plan on and a sunset date to go to on Saturday. Fazlin, call my house bout the picnic.

DUSH, I JUST KICKED MYSELF, I'M FREAKING IRRITATED BY ME. WA!!!!

Anyway, pictures with Shalini during our date before she fly off to Aussie. You better buy me stuffs okay!? I LOVE YOU LA WOMAN AND I'M GONNA MISS YOU.

And photos with the class before we head of for our holiday!=)

i really hope i get a phone soon, but i doubt so.

REFLECTIONS @ RP.

2008-11-29T15:05:00.002+08:00

I had a time of my life yesternight with Mal'. It's been awhile and we got super crazy with the lights at RP & the free postcards. Thanks eh Mal' for making me laugh cause, i miss laughing so badly. It was fun though. Spending our time together at RP's roof garden. Seriously, DLA friends, we should go there. The landscape is awesomely beautiful plus the beautiful sky sight.. HAAA! I should hang out there often... Anybody wanna accompany me? *hinthint*=)

Cool kan, cool kan?! I like the lights!!

The whole purpose of going to REFLECTIONS is HIM! =)

Credits goes to Mal' the aspiring photographer of RP!=)

stay, don't go please...